Senioritis or something

Working on the final assignments of graduate school is the worst.thing.ever.  It's as if I've literally forgotten how to read and write.  I'm illiterate again - age three.  I'm also obstinate and defiant - either a toddler or an angsty adolescent.  Maybe I'm both right now.  


Whatever the hell age I am or feel, doing this final work feels impossible.

am·biv·a·lent

  [am-biv-uh-luhnt]

adjective

1.

having ”mixed feelings about someone or something; beingunable to choose between two (usually opposing) courses of action

2.

Psychology . of or pertaining to the coexistence within anindividual of positive and negative feelings toward the sameperson, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or herin opposite directions.